Now, the brother who recently made 

all of the hurtful remarks... 

is attempting to minimize what happened 

and deflect by playing the victim

to the circumstances he, along with his coaches, created. 

Maybe their silence is due to fear 

of our loud and brazen sister.

It seems they would rather surrender their dignity 

and crawl back into the barrel of crabs 

than assert themselves, and tell the truth.

What they have shown me is… 

they are not the righteous, truthful, heroic brothers

that I thought they were. 

Living at one's best, recognizing and telling the truth, 

and living by it is constant... they know this.

I wonder why reliable truths would seem like a threat? 

And why is the truth unattainable?

Why would they, in word, search for truth;

yet, fall for and live a lie?

Where are those men who professed to be 

high souls? The behavior that I am,

regretfully, witnessing

is not reflective of their best and highest self. 

High souls tend to ascend to enlightenment 

rather than yield and descend to the 

distorted, retarded bondage found in a barrel of crabs.

High souls are one with Truth... 

they seek justice and truth.

High souls would do what they could,

 to make things right,

if it were in their power to do so.

"He that has eyes to see and ears to hear 

may convince himself that no mortal can keep a secret. 

If his lips are silent, he chatters with his fingertips; 

betrayal oozes out of him at every pore." 

– Sigmund Freud

Some are so blinded by the evil one... 

that they use their inventive faculties, not for the good,

but for the sole purpose of disregarding the personhood 

of others and going down into the most 

devilish parts of themselves in order to exclude

and mortify their victims. 

They do this as a means of elevating themselves.

This is not a good look. These action can paralyze and 

imprison one's life. 

I am grateful and humbled that God is omniscient. 

Because God knows everything (1John 3:20)... 

not only the minutest details of our lives,

but those of everything around us. 

With God as our Observer, Seer, Knower, 

and ever-present witness... 

it matters not when the physical eyewitnesses 

shrink back in silence.

Not only does God know everything 

that will occur until the end of history itself 

(Isaiah 46:9-10), 

but He also knows our very thoughts, 

even before we speak forth (Psalm 139:4).

God knows our hearts from afar; 

He even saw us in the womb (Psalm 139:1-3, 15-16). 

Obviously, none of us likes to deal with the hurtful behavior 

of someone who is lashing out at us.  

It is heartbreaking when it happens; however, 

I do believe with all my heart 

that as much as it may cause us to feel bad, 

it isn’t something we should ever allow to drive 

how we feel about ourselves.  

We should never let our view of ourselves 

be determined by family or anyone who is lashing out. 

People aren’t perfect and people aren’t all-knowing...

Only God is.