Now, the brother who recently made
all of the hurtful remarks...
is attempting to minimize what happened
and deflect by playing the victim
to the circumstances he, along with his coaches, created.
Maybe their silence is due to fear
of our loud and brazen sister.
It seems they would rather surrender their dignity
and crawl back into the barrel of crabs
than assert themselves, and tell the truth.
What they have shown me is…
they are not the righteous, truthful, heroic brothers
that I thought they were.
Living at one's best, recognizing and telling the truth,
and living by it is constant... they know this.
I wonder why reliable truths would seem like a threat?
And why is the truth unattainable?
Why would they, in word, search for truth;
yet, fall for and live a lie?
Where are those men who professed to be
high souls? The behavior that I am,
is not reflective of their best and highest self.
High souls tend to ascend to enlightenment
rather than yield and descend to the
distorted, retarded bondage found in a barrel of crabs.
High souls are one with Truth...
they seek justice and truth.
High souls would do what they could,
to make things right,
if it were in their power to do so.
"He that has eyes to see and ears to hear
may convince himself that no mortal can keep a secret.
If his lips are silent, he chatters with his fingertips;
betrayal oozes out of him at every pore."
– Sigmund Freud
Some are so blinded by the evil one...
that they use their inventive faculties, not for the good,
but for the sole purpose of disregarding the personhood
of others and going down into the most
devilish parts of themselves in order to exclude
and mortify their victims.
They do this as a means of elevating themselves.
This is not a good look. These action can paralyze and
imprison one's life.
I am grateful and humbled that God is omniscient.
Because God knows everything (1John 3:20)...
not only the minutest details of our lives,
but those of everything around us.
With God as our Observer, Seer, Knower,
and ever-present witness...
it matters not when the physical eyewitnesses
shrink back in silence.
Not only does God know everything
that will occur until the end of history itself
but He also knows our very thoughts,
even before we speak forth (Psalm 139:4).
God knows our hearts from afar;
He even saw us in the womb (Psalm 139:1-3, 15-16).
Obviously, none of us likes to deal with the hurtful behavior
of someone who is lashing out at us.
It is heartbreaking when it happens; however,
I do believe with all my heart
that as much as it may cause us to feel bad,
it isn’t something we should ever allow to drive
how we feel about ourselves.
We should never let our view of ourselves
be determined by family or anyone who is lashing out.
People aren’t perfect and people aren’t all-knowing...
Only God is.